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I am genetically not predisposed to letting go of stuff. I am biologically prone to keeping hold of things. Maybe it's nurture too. My mum and her mum both have houses full of many many bits and bobs. For my grandma, that's fair enough; she's been on her own since the mid-80s. However, my dad… Continue reading Having a clear out
Yesterday (31 January 2023) marked four years since baby boy3 made an unexpected and far too early exit from my body. I'm not someone who dwells or wallows in the grief I feel for his loss. I acknowledge it, I'm honest about it with myself and with others. I don't shy away from talking about… Continue reading Fog of Grief
Here we are again, June 17th. This was the date in 2019 that boy3 was scheduled to be born by caesarean section. So even though it's four and a half months after his actual birthday, today remains an unforgettable date for us. We've just made it through another holiday where we seemed to be surrounded… Continue reading Another year passed
Today's post is from Molly at Transatlantic Notes. Molly and I have been following each other for a while now. We have a real common sense of what's right and a shared desire to live a better life of equality and fairness. Molly's blog discusses issues to do with mental health, equality, politics and food,… Continue reading Lessons in Loss 16: Promise of a New Day
The piece was written for and first published at T.B.C, as part of a series of first time descriptions. The world around us freezes every winter, the ground hardens and is inhospitable for months. Nature is harsh, the winds blow and rain, hail and snow swamp the ground. The earth endures the pain and hardship… Continue reading There’s only one first time
Yesterday was my gran's funeral. I don't want to say anything particular about losing her, but I wanted to share the reading I did during the service. God's Garden (by Katie Evans) God looked around his garden, and he found an empty place. He then looked down upon this earth, and saw your tired face.… Continue reading Saying goodbye
Today is the second anniversary of baby boy3 being born. I'm finding things harder this year. With all the busy-ness and stress of working and home learning and me doing RED January, I've barely had a moment to pause and take stock. I'm not in a place where I have much that I can put… Continue reading Boy3’s Second Anniversary
It's Baby Loss Awareness Week. On Thursday 15th October 2020, it's a special day to remember our babies we didn't get to keep and raise awareness. I'll either be taking the day off social media or muting some topics. It's vitally important that we raise awareness of baby and infant loss and miscarriage. Families that… Continue reading Baby Loss Awareness Week 2020
I originally wrote parts of this as a section in my post Inspirational, about women I know who set an example that I aspire to. Today is the anniversary of my sister's birth. We didn't keep her for long and I don't want to write about her. I do want to acknowledge how amazing my… Continue reading My amazing mum
2019 has been a rollercoaster. So we're not making big plans for 2020. Its been a big year, we started off expecting a surprise third baby - buying maternity clothes in the sales and planning a new car big enough for three seats. By the end of January that was all over, disastrous and heartbreaking.… Continue reading Here comes 2020
Smelly Socks and Garden Peas 
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